Saturday, August 08, 2009 12:49 PM
i realised that im just one sadistic, cynical girl.
please dont sue me.
when i was fairly an adolescent, i totally adore watching the National Day Parade behind the screen of the black box. i just love singing those patriotic songs out loud ( i still do, made a fool out of myself during the National Day Celebrations in IJC) and mimicking those hand gestures especially from 'We Will Get There'.
two National Days ago, i just lost interest in NDPs. i find that they always seems to be doing the same thing over and over again. sure, they may have changed the performance, but its just practically the same. seen 16 NDPs, seen them all. or maybe i just hate to share my birth month with Singapore (mine is 2 days after) hurhur.
maybe i just hate the way how the little red dot dramatizes everything, for example. the NDP. cliched much? people chasing for tickets, queueing up all the way from sundusk to sunset. though i think the performers, many of whom have practiced from the BEGINNING of the year, do deserve a big credit. however, thousands of them do not get the credit they deserve, being shrunk to little dots on the grassy field.
what do they get for getting into NDP? im not sure its a valuable item to put onto your testimonials or your School Graduation Certificates. please do not tell me you go there for the free goodies. though i admit its nice. my parents sometimes have to guard the posts during National Day and they always throw in a few of those back home.
so, Singapore is multicultural multilingual multi-whatevernots, a mass of foreign citizens with "hopes" (rolling my eyes). and basically gaining independence since only 1965, is a small country with not much history laid on it. what have we got to be patriotic about? oh wait. the Japanese conquering us and British colonialism. "we have no rights... we have no say... we long to be free one day..." is that really true? it just sounds like a soap opera to me. i didnt recall any mass killings or genocide happening around here.
so then people tell me why they love Singapore. i just love the way how "kiasu-ism" is overused in so many ways. its not a GOOD TRAIT. its a BAD trait!!! sure, when people become selfish and only care for their own good. is that something we Singaporeans should be proud about? i dont think so.
i dont like the way where the Singapore education is mainly based for our knowledge-based economy. i dont like all the elitist nonsense, i hate all the pushing parents i see at the libraries staring down their 8-year old kids to do their math
when what they should do is sit down and read a damn good book. and we wonder WHY they seem not to have a childhood.
im not sure, when i delved into the job sector, whether i will still change my mind, cause frankly, i dont know what to say to all this.
i dont understand why people would want to hoo-ha over some old man wearing "unappropiate" attire to the park. i dont understand why people would complain about getting fined for eating a sweet in MRT, cause really, you should have seen it coming.
i consider myself to be a Singaporean. but i just loathe it when i see all the hoo-ha around here sometimes. its just like another bad soap opera.
there are many things i love about Singapore. the food, the culture, the environment, the peace, (sometimes) laughing at the kiasu people queuing up for the FREE today paper in the MRT, joke about the big Durian which im not sure how and why it became part of the Sg identity, i just love the different people in this whole city and MANY MANY more. i love my friends, family, and my Bangla, and frankly ive a good life. i cant complain much, however the part about patriotism blah blah blah just doesnt occur right to me.
so the only thing i ruled as maybe "correct" (or politically correct) is that Singaporeans are still trying to find their identity, be it individual or national. we have so little to be proud of, so little to be happy about, that we grasp the few thick lines of patriotism. thats basically what Singapore is about i guess. a few dots of people in a bigger but still small red dot, in the middle of Asia, trying to find who they are, what their past is about.
cause basically, if you just cant do one simple thing, thats is say the pledge at 8.22 pm on 9 August 2009, what else can you do?
PS: im still NOT singing the theme song this year... sounds like somebody tried to blend in patrotic and Secondhand Serenade (and SS is my favourite band, so dont ruin it!) even if i do sing, im telling you im crossing my fingers behind my back. hmph!
~ you're everything I need
